You're Not Alone

My biggest fear in life is being alone. I think to some degree we all struggle with loneliness at some point in our lives. It may come in different forms for different people. I've always struggled with it. I can't understand how some people like to be loners. I am SO not that way inclined! I must have people around me. Now granted sometimes I do need that "me time" so that I can think and have quiet time to myself. But ever since I left for college last Fall I have been lonely, even with my friends all around me. I now have this void and I keep trying to fill it with other things, but alas I keep failing and it is still empty. When we have a void in our lives, why do we try to fill it with foolish things that don't last? We should fill it with the Word and run as fast as we can to the Cross! You might say "well, I tried that but it doesn't work." Being a lonely person I know this is easier said than done. But nobody said it was easy. Lonley people have to fight for happiness and contentment. If we just read the Bible, but don't let its words teach us and fill us, then what's the point??? Like double duh!! (as my mom likes to say lol). The thing is we REALLY aren't all that alone. God is all around us in the form of His creation, but we are stubborn and sometimes we refuse to see it that way. As much as I love people, I often struggle with putting too much faith in them and setting expectations that are too high. I often make the mistake of looking to people to fill that void when I should be looking to Christ. Being the type of person that I am I DO need people, but not as much as I need Him! God is the only One that fully satisfy me, but I have to want Him in order for Him to do that. I have had to learn lots of things the hard way and this is one of them. I have put too much faith in people and the Lord has made me walk through some painful things to make me see that He is the only One I need. I have trust issues. I put too much trust in people and not enough in Christ! How pitiful is that?!? Especially since people are the sinners and He is the Perfect! Psalm 18:30 "This God-His way is perfect; the word of the Lord proves true; He is a shield for all those who take refuge in Him." I must learn to wait for the Lord and to trust in Him. His timing is perfect. It's just like the song..."trust and obey for there's no other way to be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey." My mom made up a saying, "it is better to suffer a bit of short-term misery for long-term happiness." The Lord has blessed her with much wisdom. I am tired of still having that void, I am tired of being lonely, I am tired of being discontent, I am tired of this unhappiness, I am tired of trying and failing!. Psalm 34:18 "The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit." I want to be satisfied by Him! Isaiah 40:29-31 "He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might He increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint." You're not alone!